Thursday, March 17, 2011

Once a bulimic

I missed joining Nostalgia, I have no entry last week. I just don't feel nostalgic, see that girl in the corner? That's the old me, taken after our graduation. Too thin to be me, isn't it?

Growing up I am not thin nor fat, the only problem is I have a bulgy stomach. My mother always tell me I am like a frog, thin arms and legs but big stomach. So you will seldom see me in fit clothes, well anyway how are you going to see me if I am boyish, right?

Anyway on college, the ugly duckling turn to swan. I was just lucky whatever you may call it, my new found friend on college our kikay's. Retouch to the left and to the right, so later on I found my way to what they call blossoming period, but the fact that I can't wear fit clothes without holding my breath. I started jogging and doing exercise early in the morning, I woke up as early as 4:30 in the morning to jog in the street, do sit-ups. There are times I am lucky if one  of the street light is not broken, you know there's no houses just fields except if you reach our house then more houses .

Before being bulimic
One night while watching a TV show with my sister, Mel and Joey if I am not mistaken, they're  talking about bulimia nervosa an eating disorder characterized by restraining of food intake for a period of time followed by an over intake or binging period that results in feelings of guilt and low self-esteem. So an idea struck on me, the next day all I know I am already a bulimic, if before one cup of rice is enough not this time I keep eating on large quantities until my stomach can't hold it anymore and there throw up all the food I ate. Nobody knows it, I got the body I want I became thin, I mean my stomach became smaller. Later I know my sister told me she knew what I am doing when I am left to wash the dishes in the kitchen.

Anyway I also stopped jogging in the morning, I told myself I don't  need to feel tired everyday if throwing up all the food is the easiest way to get what I want.  Well probably my mother like my transformation, she started buying girly clothes for me, like blouses, skirts and even sandals and make-ups.

I enjoyed being me that time, I have confidence to wear what I want to wear and etc., not until I graduate and started looking for work. That was the time I regret the things I have done, if I can just return the time I will not do it again. Just too bad, its too late., that time a realization came to myself I only have one life, it is not like typing in a word application  that you can erase, (backspace) delete or undo-delete it and saved.

When I overcome being bulimic



chubskulit said...

Naks ang mga posing pang model hehehe, wala namang bulging tummy eh.. Ganyan din ako Rhe, laki kaya ng puson ko kahirap alisin hehehe.. You still look great ya know.

anne said...

Bulimic is the unhealthy way of diet. I am glad you were okay then

kat said...

tamang-tama sa yo yong kantang "kung maibabalik ko lang, ang dati kong kaseksehan, pakaka-iingatan ko at aalagaannnn" hehehehe.

Entry ko nasa Mom's Place hehe

☆Mama Ko☆ said...

Okay lng naman katawan mo sis wala naman probs, now and before still look okay

Nostalgic Moment

w0rkingAth0mE said...

i like the second photo ang sexy mo don madam .. medyo na busy sa ibang bagay ngayon lang nakadaan TGIF :)